It's frequently hard to tell what is sensible caution and backing out of a situation before it can do you too much damage, and what's strangling something in its infancy due to characteristic self-sabotaging defeatism designed to prevent happiness or success.

Joys of being a lunatic, I suppose.

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Embroidery Part 2: The finished product

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I'm still back-and-forthing on whether or not to do Year of the Ghost and Mortuary Remains. I think if I'm going to not do it I have to stop sitting here not sending out poems, and if I *am* going to do it I need to actually put some thought into the selection process and not have the ( Read more... )

Post about (excellent, wonderful, brilliant, exciting) weekend of the "holy shit I have FRIENDS and they LIKE ME" variety postponed while the backlash comes in the form of "borderline personality disorder is actually the shittest thing and probably the worst parts of it are a) the bit where you use the people you love as a form of self-harm and ( Read more... )

Beautiful afternoon in pleasant surroundings in the company of interesting friend is, alas, not very productive, although it did stop me from going postal at the internet.

TOMORROW, SELF, YOU HAVE THREE OPTIONS:

1. Writing. Stop whining and bellyaching about being browbeaten and uninspired.2. Jewellery listings. Just get the drafts written and ( Read more... )

Funny old thing, praise. Can't live without it in that brain goes loopy without validation and insists that I don't exist. Lukewarm praise receives a return message of YOU ARE TERRIBLE THEY JUST DON'T WANT TO UPSET YOU, unexpected praise results in a return message of OH SHIT PEOPLE CAN SEE ME BURN EVERYTHING HIDE IN THE SEWERS, excitement and ( Read more... )

Legendarily bad. After I talked everyone's heads off on Friday I then failed to do all the stuff I was meant to on Saturday because of laziness, and now it's Sunday and I'm still trying to catch up, somewhat hampered by endlessly distracting myself (The NHS Bill! Gay saints! Aimlessly trying to draw fat girls flopping listlessly on the floor! ( Read more... )

It's refusing to load LJ. So here I am, having downloaded Chrome specifically for the purpose of loading Livejournal. Eeesh ( Read more... )

Not a happy Derek. Brain dumped a load on me while I was sleeping, which amounted to "you are disgusting because you are a homo, never touch anyone, you repulse them all" and then got very specific about dashing future hopes and I'm still too insane to actually ask for reassurance so I'm now whining passive-aggressively on LJ and I hate everything ( Read more... )

CBA explaining hysterical crying, suicide research, excessive self-harm or screaming at my boyfriend mostly because there ISN'T an explanation and also I am severely coming to hate LJ because of who doesn't comment affecting me more than who does.

So I am making a post of awesome animated movie moments instead.

DISNEY

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"Be Prepared", from the ( Read more... )

Informed Lindsay earlier that my Christmas present to the world was going to be "I will jump off a bridge and put me out of everyone's misery", since he doesn't approve of my plan to remove my own brain with a fork and spend the rest of my life drooling on myself in a Cabbage ward ( Read more... )